you know why i said "no"? it just a matter of I was never sure of when I was with you. i never sure will end up with you. so why do i have to start?

i really sure we will end up like this. we are meant to be a back stabber for each other.

“You know what sucks? Realizing that everything you believe in is complete and utter bullshit”

Label: you

haha. i always lose my words when i have to blogging.

re-arrange my whole life can be the toughest thing i've ever try. but i keep on track.
i've been a busy bee lately. but, i'll tell you next. stay tune.

kiss and hug.
muachhhhh...

do you fell it??? NO? hahha. imagine it! online kiss and hugs.



a small town that I couldn't wait to get out of.

Label: life

this could be the worst day ever in my live. hope so. i just cant hold any day with so much suffer like today.
i feel like i am the loneliest person in the world. i feel noting.

first, i fight with my friend. seems like to take a scene for my movie need a fight because every day must end with unreconstructed schedule. i mean i dont want to be bossy but, i just cant handle any ego. you have a personal life. but everybody has.

second, what else, i found a girl. it's a long story that i finally realize that she hate me because a boy. oh come on. i mean he's all your and he was a story for me. you are happy couple now. am i a problem? am i such a destruction?

third, i fell totally dummy today. he is a real man, handsome does. i love his simplicity that's why he looks so aww. after all i want to giving up like yesterday and the day before. somehow i start to believe 500 days of summer. there's no such a thing as love. it's childhood fantasy. hopefully i wont be able to stand this assumption.

fortunately i can get through this day. and stay alive without kill my self. hahha

Label: daily life, love

i am the luckiest girl ever.

i believe everything is happen for a reason. and there it is, the real proof. i mean, i developing my self again tonight. i realize many thing tonight.

well, finally i can let go everything. and god answer my pray. i used to involve with a boy without any label on it. it was sooo questionable. sometimes (i'm not that religious) i pray to god and asking the same question. is he meant to be with me or not? and finally god answer "no". but, it's kinda mess me up when people come to me and ask how far we go, our current label, etc. in the other word i am denying a broken heart.

then i remember my self that we are not meant to be. i was so blinded by emotion. he can't even bear my self. i big girl with a big dream. i need a really huge and strong container.

Label: dream

you know why i said "no"? it just a matter of I was never sure of when I was with you. i never sure will end up with you. so why do i have to start?

i really sure we will end up like this. we are meant to be a back stabber for each other.

“You know what sucks? Realizing that everything you believe in is complete and utter bullshit”

Label: you

haha. i always lose my words when i have to blogging.

re-arrange my whole life can be the toughest thing i've ever try. but i keep on track.
i've been a busy bee lately. but, i'll tell you next. stay tune.

kiss and hug.
muachhhhh...

do you fell it??? NO? hahha. imagine it! online kiss and hugs.



a small town that I couldn't wait to get out of.

Label: life

this could be the worst day ever in my live. hope so. i just cant hold any day with so much suffer like today.
i feel like i am the loneliest person in the world. i feel noting.

first, i fight with my friend. seems like to take a scene for my movie need a fight because every day must end with unreconstructed schedule. i mean i dont want to be bossy but, i just cant handle any ego. you have a personal life. but everybody has.

second, what else, i found a girl. it's a long story that i finally realize that she hate me because a boy. oh come on. i mean he's all your and he was a story for me. you are happy couple now. am i a problem? am i such a destruction?

third, i fell totally dummy today. he is a real man, handsome does. i love his simplicity that's why he looks so aww. after all i want to giving up like yesterday and the day before. somehow i start to believe 500 days of summer. there's no such a thing as love. it's childhood fantasy. hopefully i wont be able to stand this assumption.

fortunately i can get through this day. and stay alive without kill my self. hahha

Label: daily life, love

i am the luckiest girl ever.

i believe everything is happen for a reason. and there it is, the real proof. i mean, i developing my self again tonight. i realize many thing tonight.

well, finally i can let go everything. and god answer my pray. i used to involve with a boy without any label on it. it was sooo questionable. sometimes (i'm not that religious) i pray to god and asking the same question. is he meant to be with me or not? and finally god answer "no". but, it's kinda mess me up when people come to me and ask how far we go, our current label, etc. in the other word i am denying a broken heart.

then i remember my self that we are not meant to be. i was so blinded by emotion. he can't even bear my self. i big girl with a big dream. i need a really huge and strong container.

Label: dream